Tuesday, March 11, 2014

Never Stop Fighting

I am beginning to feel overwhelmed by the fact that Barrett turned two last month, but I don't think I've ever loved him more. There's this battle between his lack of communication and his ability to know exactly what he wants when he wants it, even how he wants it, and we're barely able to help him because his independence outweighs the need for support. But he needs us, and he knows he needs us. Even if it's just to look at him while he watches Frozen. The good exceeds the bad, as with any human relationship that we are willing to fight for, and this kid's never leaving our sides. 
I learned last night that he can count to 15, and that just blew my mind. Something so simple, yet something that leads to the basis of his entire future. His ability to focus is something we all need to learn from. One thing, one, can hold his attention for minutes at a time, and that is something I'm noticing the adult population does not have anymore. We're all scared for the future generations, but I'm sitting here terrified for our current surroundings that the "future generations" are just floating through with the help of our wishy-washy guidance. History shows that this fear will never subside as long as the human race exists, but I think we are becoming aware of our ability to actually do something about it. We're here to protect them, but we can also help them understand, obtain knowledge (rather than information), and actually think about where they come from. I think that's what we need to throw toward these "future minds." If we sit here in fear for the future, nothing is going to change in the present, and I think that's just silly. 
Bear, I'm rooting for you and I hope you never lose that focus. You're going to need it, buddy. Thank you for helping me notice things about my own weirdo culture, and I hope to continue to do the same for you. 

"To be nobody but yourself in a world that's doing its best to make you somebody else is to fight the hardest battle you are ever going to fight. Never stop fighting." -E.E. Cummings